Diary01/11/00 Today's big issue: how much? I can't believe I had to pay 72 dollars for a softcover textbook... GRAR! Oh well. There goes two days of work. Not much happened today. I had classes, but no biggie. We started the first Physics II class with a 110 question multiple choice test. fun. Then I went back to my cell and listened to records the rest of the night. I talked to Ariel on the phone for a bit and then settled into listless computerey stuff. Then I talked to Leanne (see!) on AOL a bit while writing this and then went to bed. 01/10/00 Today's big issue: oh yeah, i remember this... So I had classes today. Nice classes, but still classes. Not as bad as I've been making it out to be in my mind, but still not quite as much fun as being on vacation. Not that it's supposed to be, but.. um whatever. I had my first Advanced Dinosaurs class today. It turns out that it's going to be a lot of work, but that's a good thing, I think. It would be kinda lame to pay for a class where I never did anything, right? I still need to buy all of my books. I stopped by the bookstore, but the line was huge, plus I have to deposit some checks before I buy anything (well I probably don't have to, but just to be safe...) and the line at the bank was just as long, so I'll do all that tomorrow. I have my first Intro to Philosophy class tomorrow and hopefully I'll enjoy that as much as I've been telling myself that I will. Wow, I'm a dork. Oh well. I talked to Ariel twice on the phone today and she read me an essay she wrote for English. I thought it was mad good but she was nervous that her teacher would say it wasn't what she wanted. From what I remember, those are the ones that usually end up getting the best grades because generally the reason you're nervous about them is that they are honest, so if a teacher gives you a bad grade, he/she is a dick. Luckily I've never really had English teachers like that. I miss Doc... Today's date is cool. 01/09/00 Today's big issue: i'm better now, i think... Well, I'm back at school. Gak. Lame. All that. I found out that half of the people on my floor have 4.0s, too so I'm not all that special. Oh well. I guess I will actually have a hard time here, since it just seems like they make the first semister easier now. We'll see. I shouldn't have too much trouble. I do feel a bit of a putz about taking advanced dinosaurs, but still I'll see how it turns out. If it seems like it's going to be stupid in the first couple days I'll plead with my advisor to get me into something better. But still, a class on dinosaurs... I got to check in wit my peeps before going back, so that was good. I stopped by Ariel's first since she couldn't come to Zak's because she had to take care of her sick brother and dog, and that was nice, except for the part where her dog Zeke, who is sick and isn't supposed to be eating other than rice or something decided to devour the whole tray full of cinnamon buns she left on the stove when we went upstairs.. I hope he's ok, he's such a sweetie. After going there I went over to Zak's and just generally chilled with Zak and Matt and then we got Kevin and went to the supermarket and then I went home and ate and then... back to college. Barf. Now I'm just nervous. 1/8/00 Today's big issue: this isn't the way it was supposed to be. This was my last day home before going back to school. What do I do now? I've wasted my last night at home writing stupid songs I'm going to throw away and feeling sorry for myself for being too selfish. Tomorrow I have to go back to school. I hate it when people say that college is the best time of your life because I know that they're lying. It's been the most miserable experience I've ever had. I said the same thing in high school. Where is this going? When I'm (un)employed and out in the world, with things just keep deteriorating? What's the point? If things just get worse, why keep going? When did I get so down on being alive? Just a few weeks ago I was just wonderfully happy and hopeful about everything that could happen. Well, now it's over and I have to go back to school. I'd trade my 4.0 for just a few more days with the people I care about, but some things just don't work. I hate this. i hate it i hate it i hate it... 1/4/00 Today's big issue: !. ?. !. Today was a bit weird. It started off kinda good-ish: at work all of the computers I had to fix were Macs, so the day was pretty easy. Then I got home and found that I got a couple of free CDs in the mail (reviews soon since I like them), so that's always good. Then I called Ariel and found out that due to a parental crackdown of unknown purpose, she was not allowed to visit or have visitors, most likely due to the fact that her school vacation is over, but still, sheesh. Bad enough she has to go back to school... After that I went over to Zak's (like always). Zak, his mom, Matt and I went to see The Green Mile and it was really wonderful. I got all misty-eyed. I just wanted to give John Coffey a hug. It was kinda suprising that Stephen King wrote it since I've hated every book of his that I've read... Huh, without that stupid haiku thing I don't know how to end entries any more. 1/3/00 Today's big issue: grar. Today kinda sucked but was ok, I guess. At work, we had to make a trip over to the highschool, so I got to see Doc for the first time in a while, so that was cool. Me and Matt had planned to find Ariel in one of her classes, but when we found her, she was in Mr. Garing's class so we were afraid to come in... no hard feelings, hopefully. After work, I putzed around for a while and then went over to Zak's. It was the first time in quite a while when we didn't play Carmageddon 2. When stuff was winding down, we went over to the supermarket and I bought what I thought at the time was chapstick that I could use, but when I got it home, I found out that it had lanolin (comes from wool) in it, so I'm out of luck. It's weird since I specifically skipped over some other kinds because they had lanolin in them... I just didn't see it on this one for some reason. I guess I'll give it to someone... Wow, that's actually quite a lot to write about a 99 cent stick of lip balm... And I've decided to stop doing the haiku of the day thing since it makes me dread updating my journal when I have nothing to write about (like today). (the last) Haiku of the day: It's time I stopped this It's stupid to write haikus When I don't want to 1/1/00 Today's big issue: Twenty Naughty-naught I'm all confused today. Eh. That's pretty much it. Since it's technically sunday morning now, it's Ariel's last day of freedom (vacation) before she has to start going to school again and only a week until I have to go back. It's weird how something that I'm paying thousands upon thousands of dollars a year for and will supposedly be the basis of the rest of my life seems to be nothing more than a looming, terrifying end to everything that I enjoy. Or maybe that's just the post-holiday depression talking... Haiku of the day: Again I count days Dread this time instead of hope What am I doing? 12/31/99 and 1/1/00 Today's big issue: Why even say it? First words of the Naughties: Ariel: "The start of a new day!" Zak: "I have not yet begun to funk!" Me: "Let's go play with Legos!" Haiku of the day: Hey we're all still here Contrary to some people Bet they feel stupid 12/28/99 Today's big issue: now what was that like again? Wow it's been forever and a half since I've updated this page. Pretty much same old same old, though. Well there was that whole Christmas thing, but whatever. It was ok, I guess. It really sucks- I used to get so excited about stuff like this but this year I was like "oh yeah. It's christmas today." Maybe next year. I did at least get to chill with my friends pretty much every night for the past few days, so that rocks. I wish I had a social life at college, but I like my friends here better, and I don't feel like adapting to new people, so oh well. It all comes down to stubbornness, I suppose. I saw The Talented Mr. Ripley yesterday. Don't go to it. It's way too long for what plot there is. It just sort of strings along and you know exactly what's going to happen every time. I guess the concept of the only character that would normally be considered likable, the poor kid trying to fit in and be happy around the privilidged brats of the wealthy, being a psychotic and a murderer is appealing, but that's it. There's the concept. You don't have to see the movie because it doesn't provide anything beyond that, except for some overly gory murder scenes. The whole thing was just excrutiatingly creepy and dull. Oh well. This vacation is going way too fast... Haiku of the day: Be back on the tenth The school calendar tells me God I hate that thing 12/21/99 Today's big issue: yay! I got my grade for calculus and I now officially have a 4.0 GPA! Woo! (gloat gloat) Other than that, today I went back to work for the first time. It's weird to actually be making a bit of money again. And I got to see everyone from work that I haven't seen in a long time. I'm so glad that Sal is my boss, he rocks. And it seems like Matt is going to be allowed back after all, so that's cool too. After work I talked on the phone with Ariel and Zak and then went to Zak's after a bit of nervously waiting for him to call back. We chilled for a little bit and then Ariel had to go home and we decided to go see Toy Story 2. I liked it, too. Very cute. We were the last people in the theatre and when we left everything was all locked up so we had to go through a side exit and walk all the way around the mall in the negative a billion temperature night. Oh well. Haiku of the day: what about homework Oh yeah I'm on vacation So stop worrying 12/20/99 Today's big issue: golly Wow, it's been quite a long time since I've written in this thing. Nothing's wrong, it's just that I've actually been doing stuff. I never really feel like doing any computer-related stuff after getting home at 2am. But today things pretty much ended early, so now I don't have an excuse to neglect this. So yeah, this week has pretty much rocked. Nothing really special happened, but I've had lots of fun and a lot more social activity that I do at school. My only complaints are that I haven't gotten to chill with Ariel as much as I would have hoped since she still has school, I don't know if Matt Gelina is back or not, Eric still isn't back yet, Leanne's in the South and I still haven't seen Raessa. But other than that, all is coo'. I found out that I got an A in my philosophy class, so combining that with the As that I got in chemistry and chysics, I have a 4.0 GPA at the moment. I still don't know what I got in calculus, though, so that's not certain. I'm actually trying to check now, but the stupid student information system server is being a little punk and won't let me log on. Curse it. I had two of the strangest dreams the other night, and the weird thing is that I remember them both really clearly. I usually don't remember my dreams for some reason. But these were odd. In the first one, I was in a punk band and we were playing at my old middle school. No, I don't know why. Anyway, we got there and then realized that we didn't know any songs. Whoops. So I went to the microphone and explained the situation and said we'd just make stuff up as we went along. I then started to play just a simple fast generic bass line but it came out as "pop goes the weasel" and everyone looked at me weird and I woke up. And the second one was even stranger. Me and Kevin were walking around at a place that was a combination of my highschool and the middle school where I worked, and we were going through a little fence part designed to keep bicycles off of the track (neither the highschool nor the middle school has such a thing, but the school in the movie we saw that night did...) and there were lots of little "kids". They actually kind of looked like adults, but they were small. We saw one of these mini people being mean to the mini people that were smaller than him and we yelled at him and chased after him. Somewhere around this point, Kevin disappeared completely and the mini person became a fairly large person dressed like a gangsta. And there were more like him and they were throwing logs at each other. Yeah, that's right, logs. They did that for a while and all of the sudden they were sitting in a circle having a theological discussion, involving whether or not Jesus was ever in a human form or if he was just a concept. I wanted to jump in but they were big and scary and it's hard to be an agnostic around big scary believers. Then, one of the human form supporters began running around and one of the other guys, still dressed as a hoodlum, mind you, said "I tire of his theatrics". And there was a tree with a dirty, cloth lined hole that one of the people next to me told me went to another dimension. So, therefore, I think I must be insane. Or maybe I'm just not used to caffeine. Haiku of the day: I'm on vacation Well it's about freaking time I was going nuts 12/15/99 Today's big issue: hee. At least I've done some stuff the last two days. Not much really but I've gotten out of my house. Yesterday I went to kevin's and we rented Short Circut 2, a masterpiece of modern filmmaking. I dig the punk Johnny 5. Then today we rented a Nintendo game involving racing micromachines cars. It was really really cute and suprisingly fun. Curse that spilled syrup on the table! Curse it! Tomorrow I have to go back to school to take my last final. Ick. But at least it's the last I'll have to deal with school for a little while. I still have to do my Christmas shopping. I have no idea what to get my family members. I got presents for my friends pretty easily though... Haiku of the day: Just one more exam Then I get to leave that place Vacations kick ass 12/13/99 Today's big issue: oy. today was a perfectly awful day. Not because of what happened but because of what didn't happen. I did NOTHING all day. I got a package in the mail with some new cds and a record, but that doesn't really qualify as doing something. The only thing that kept me from being totally depressed was listening to the Secret Stars' first record sitting in the middle of the floor in my room with all of the lights out. I guess that's just how things work out: i have a really great day where i have a lot of fun and the next day is absolutely dull by comparison. Haiku of the day: I know this is dumb maybe they're not real haikus but i'm bored ok? 12/12/99 Today's big issue: another! Another great me and jeremy show! yay! Full review comes tomorra. I smell like smoke. I think I'll go to bed soon. Haiku of the day: This is why I live I suffer through college life This makes it worth it 12/10/99 Today's big issue: back like a vertebrae Yay I'm back home now. This means no more being woken up by loud people in the hall, a lot less stress and more possibilities of actually doing something with my free time. Rad. I still have to take one more final, calculus, but that's not until next friday so I've got a bunch of time to be a lazy dork and listen to records all day. Speaking of which I found out that my mom had one of those neato vinyl cleaning brush thingies and she gave it to me since she never listened to her records any more. I always liked the way records sounded better than cds and now I know that I like them even better when they're cleaner. Neat. The only odd thing is that there were a few records that I listened to a lot that I never really cleaned because I didn't have anything good to clean them with and now they don't sound quite right without all of the pops and scratches that I used to hear. Oh well. I'll adapt. Other than that, today was pretty uneventful. I talked to Ariel on the phone for a bit, so that's always nice. We're so excited about the Me and Jeremy show on sunday. If you live around here, you should be too because you are going aren't you? :) Haiku of the day: I used to worry School would make me rush around But this is better 12/09/99 Today's big issue: fretfretfretfretfret Today was a nervous day. But now I know that I have an A in physics as well as in chemistry, so I think I'm doing suprisingly well this semister. I know I'll probably get a B in philosophy and I'm actually not all that sure about calculus, but I will have a pretty high gpa so I'm happy. Now I can sleep. I found out today that parasol records now takes orders online. There goes all my money. Oh well. I think I'm going to have to work a lot during the break just to keep myself from being a total drain on my money that I didn't earn. Other than that... yawn. Haiku of the day: School's out for winter A temporary respite But for now I'm free 12/08/99 Today's big issue: yay! Today was actually pretty good. I found out I'm getting an A in chemistry! That means I don't have to take the final! Woohoo! Unfortunately, I think I screwed up the calculus test I had to day. Well, I mean I did good on most of it, but there was that one problem... I don't wanna get into it. I have a physics test tomorrow and hopefully I'll be able to do well on that... I talked to Ariel on the phone and made more plans for the Me and Jeremy show, and I wrote to Mark from the band. Ariel thinks I'm too shy. She's right, but oh well what else can I do? Talk to other people? nah. Haiku of the day: The more I like chem The less it affects my life Now it's in the past 12/07/99 Today's big issue: blaaaaaa So so SO dull. I was this bored. Haiku of the day: This has to end soon I can't stand being at school Well at least not here 12/06/99 Today's big issue: sigh... Another grey day. Weather wise and in terms of how things turned out. It turns out that Ariel can't go to the Mike Barron thing on friday, so I have to decide whether or not I feel like going alone... I suppose I will, but I dunno. At least I'll be going to the Me and Jeremy show on Sunday, so that'll be cool. Me and Jeremy show number 8. And Ariel said that Eric's sister is going to be going. weird. I finally got a hundred on the math test that I've been taking almost every night of the week recently, so I don't have to do that anymore. And there are only 3 class days left. Tick tick. I can't wait to get home again. I am so much happier there. I don't know what it is about this school. I just can't relate to it. I feel like such a loser and I don't talk to anyone here and I'm totally not like that for the most part. Whee. And of course, my vacation is shorter than everyone elses... why does everyone else get all of January off when I have to go back on the tenth? Lame lame lame. Haiku of the day: Just two days here suck I want to go home again It's only monday 12/05/99 Today's big issue: chemistrychemistrychemistry Today was ruled by studying for chemistry and playing carmageddon. I also went to dinner with my mom and brother and ended up having a baked potato because there was nothing else in the place that I could eat. Oh well. Fun fun. Haiku of the day: I forgot to write so now it's the day after and even more dull 12/04/99 Today's big issue: it's good to be silly again Such a silly day! I went over to Ariel's and me her and her brother went to the video store and rented Inner Space. It's been so long since I've seen that movie, or anything with Martin Short in it for that matter... I wonder what he's doing now? Probably a gang boss. Anyway after the movie me and Ariel went to the supermarket. You'd be suprised how much fun you can have in a supermarket. We must have looked like total freaks because we were in the cereal isle at almost midnight and laughing loudly. I think the cartoon character on the store brand Trix set us off - it's called Freaky Fruits and there is this bright red crazy looking cartoon person eyeing the pictured bowl of cereal suspiciously. Ariel was supposed to be home by midnight and she got home on time but we weren't really expecting to end up spending over an hour in the supermarket getting stuff that could fit in one plastic bag... see in Schenectady you have to find your fun. It's too bad I didn't bring my camera with me though... there was an orange spill. And I bought THIS. I so can't wait until Christmas break... I only have four days of classes and then finals and then almost every day will be like this. Haiku of the day: I work at college and I live on the weekends Soon I'll live full time The older entries are here... |